am not used to the endless supply of free time, the fact tht i can wake up at any goddamn time i want, and tht its not sinful to be doing anythg besides studying :D yeah !
its only been 4 days since it all ended but somehow it feels like a lot more. am elated tht jin's finally back ! sorry i didnt stick arnd zouk fer long dear, clubbing is yet another item i can add to tht list of things i'm not used to yet. its been forever it seems , actually having difficulty adjusting back to party mode. highly prone to non-stop yawning and drowsiness even before midnight ... pfft.
lousy weather. something always comes along to rain on my parade. hmm literally. had exciting plans fer sentosa ... but so much fer tht. finally got myself registered fer driving lessons. i'm already having visions of roadtrips and minimal cab rides woohoo.
to randomly sum up whats taken place so far :
- swallowed 3 ball bearings in the past 3 days
- attended a jay chou concert on the 26th and as a non-fan i must admit, the dude's got style
- still waiting fer a rock concert tho
- went fer mambo and concluded, getting packed like sardines wif sweaty strangers and swaying to the same beat cos theres no space fer individual movement is just not my thang anymore.
- watched "saw" last nite and found it more a comedy than a hair-raising thriller. nevertheless, it was entertaining and the story wasnt all tht bad.
- jin's back ! =)))
- got new highlights and a much needed haircut ... the waiting was a killer tho.
i'm lookin out my window and it looks like fuckin coketown out there. ominous black rain clouds and not heavy pollution tho. this signals nap time.
eminem makes me laugh. encore indeed.
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the masochist gnarled at 11/28/2004 03:42:00 PM
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
riddle : those who make it, do not use it. those who buy it do not wear it. those who wear it, do not see or feel it (clue : object)
not sure if those were the exact words to tht, but yeah i think i've kinda got an answer in mind. anyone wanna try ? aside from silly riddles and thoughts abt how bleak my future really is, yet another day has gone by ; dull & dreary. slightly cranky and prone to aches and pains - undoubtedly the result of an immense lack of sleep. the mere thought of the standard chartered marathon in dec depresses me already, so there goes tht plan. have struck a coupla things off my post exam "to do" list after much consideration wif regards to my current state of health & poor sleeping patterns.
strangely, many of my favourite activities involve solitary indulgence. perhaps its because pple intimidate me. perhaps their presence irritates me to a point of claustrophobia. whatever the case may be, it irks me when i get shocked or bewildered responses when i tell pple i'm doing something alone. "lonerish loser" or "loserish loner" - thts probably what they're thinking.
i think its preposterous tht some pple dont believe in things thay cannot see or touch. like love .. or ghosts. you dont make large sacrifices fer the sake of attraction/infatuation. and you shld be glad tht ghosts exist, unless you wish to evaporate into nothingness when yer time is up.
i dont know whye i let inconsequential things plague my thoughts. on a separate note altogether, i think i'm falling in love wif greece ... or rather a poster of a picturesque landscape wif the words "greece" printed across it in bold black cursive.
nat king cole - love was made for me & you
the masochist gnarled at 11/09/2004 07:08:00 PM
Saturday, November 06, 2004
Hasn't anyone ever told you that you're artistic?
Fair enough. Perhaps they haven't. But now that you know, you must become one with your inner self.
Virtues: You look for immense creativity and individuality in people, including yourself. You're not happy with anything less than brilliant, and you focus on being expressive. You value energy, liveliness, and upbeat personalities, but you're not supportive of moodiness when you yourself can be unreliably moody. Seeking activity, you like the bustle of business but need the secluded atmosphere of a studio or private corner.
Aspirations: You feel the need to express your talents, whether it be through writing, drawing, singing, dancing, composing, performing, or photographing. While you strive to ever improve your work, you want to display it as soon as possible when your impatience kicks in. You want to be a prodigy but you might not have the means right at your fingertips. Trust me, do NOT move to New York to do it. Yeesh!
Quirks: Conformists bother you because of their lack of individuality. You're often late or unreliable. You're showy and refuse to share the spotlight. You only tell little white lies. You worm your way into the hearts of others, but be careful; some people despise the show-offs.
Factors: Surround yourself with activity and you'll always have material to work with. Involve friends and family in your projects so they don't feel like envious outsiders.
Future: Show business or not, you'll settle down happily if you're among those who appreciate your natural talents and desire to perform. Don't stay in one place too long, and don't be too hasty in defining your relationships. Who are you to judge what only time will tell?
me ? in showbiz ?? showing off ? ! hmmmm ...
the masochist gnarled at 11/06/2004 08:15:00 PM
Friday, November 05, 2004
time to spill lest i implode.
my insinuations dont quite seem to be getting across. perhaps a blunter approach wld prove far more effective. so much fer attempting to be civil arnd here.
ideal placidity has been achieved, albeit having been surrounded by insipid characters fer the past week.
the fast approaching history paper no longer resembles the ogre tht once terrified me. perhaps its always been the teacher tht bore the monstrous resemblance and not the subject itself. either way, i am very very (un)prepared for battle.
am rather tired of listening to airy fairy talk regarding the prom. what wif joyce being voted prom queen (oddly, tht brings a smile to my face. not in the mocking or sinister way too) and the oh so exciting venue. i think i'm gonna make arrangements fer lodging elsewhere fer a nite or two.
(20 days and counting ...)
coheed & cambria - devil in jersey city
the masochist gnarled at 11/05/2004 11:29:00 AM