lemme lay it on the line.
i hate having to adapt to new circumstances.
hmmm imagine life wifout sms.
a single beep of the fone can be like a small shot of ecstacy.
the anticipation. the much thot-abt replies.
gives me strange sadistic pleasure to observe such victims.
*wad u now possess may cease to satisfy in time to come.
its scaryyy how things change in the blink of an eye.
time to say gdbye to yet another yr gone by.
bid farewell to friendships soon to be bound be geographical obstacles.
cant help but feel a tinge of sadness as i close the door on certain things in my life.
_tears of red.
--------tim mcgraw & faith hill - its your love :)
the masochist gnarled at 12/31/2003 02:34:00 PM
lets turn this dancefloor into our own lil nasty thing.
the masochist gnarled at 12/31/2003 02:06:00 AM
Tuesday, December 30, 2003
Open up my eyes, flooded with daylight
Another sleepless night turns color black and white
With all the things I've said
There is just regret, repeating in my head
Hands into a fist, static in my head
Now I'm sitting face to face with loneliness
What did I expect?
Did I see forever in you?
I never wanted it to hurt more than it should
I hope you're satisfied I never could
Time to close my eyes, forget about this mess
And try to fix this tragic loss of innocence
But how could I forget the things I have inside,
When everything is dead?
I never wanted it to hurt more than it should
I hope your satisfied, I never could
Can't you see, you left me here on my own
Give me one good reason why I should let go
With my hands around your neck,
Who will stop me now?
the masochist gnarled at 12/30/2003 01:14:00 PM
talk abt bad timinggg :(
anticipated all day fer the rite moment but it nv came.
i chickened out.
i'm a chicken shit.
lets not talk abt where everyone is rite this very moment.
lets talk abt where i am.
rite here wif the culprits responsible fer my miserable existence.
how can they bring an innocent life into this cruel world,
then fuck up s'more by inflictg mental & emotional pain upon it.
timing is everythg.
funny how u go on pining fer ages fer the one thing u really want.
then when it falls rite smack in front of ya,
u hesitate to accept it.
u reject it.
such is life.
its not abt havin wotcha want, but wantg wotcha have -winks at gracie-
i'm a shopping idiot.
furstly, i'm clueless as to which shops to go to fer the good stuff.
secondly, i'm majorly indecisive.
plus i think i haf bad taste.
moreover, i'm paranoid tht the recipient wont like wad i got em.
okayy n lastly, ARGH dont wanna talk abt it anymore bleah.
sorry everyone fer the late xmas pressies heh.
i swear i haf em wif me !
watched some Ali G shit today.
my gawd the dude is fuckin lame.
heh seriously its fuckin hilarious in a really unique sorta wayyy.
so much fer slags, batty boys, punanis, WICKED, n loadsa other totally wacky phrases.
:)
hectic schedules.
limited free time.
work overload.
perpetual PMS.
restrictions.
i predict 2004 to be a yr of hell.
do u noe wad yer gettg yerself into ?
*Stranger than your sympathy,
And this is my apology
I'm killing myself from the inside out,
And all my fears have pushed you out.
And I wished for things that I don't need.
All I wanted
And what I chase won't set me free.
It's all I wanted
And I get scared but I'm not crawling on my knees.
Oh yeah, everything's all wrong, yeah.
Everything's all wrong, yeah.
Who the hell did I think I was?
Stranger than your sympathy.
I take these things so I don't feel.
I'm killing myself from the inside out,
And now my head's been filled with doubt.*
-goo goo dolls : sympathy
skye diving. bungee jumpingg. deep-sea diving. hang-gliding. parasailing.
bangkok. hongkong. colorado. new york. miami. tokyo. hawaii.
*Life's too short to be afraid
So take a pill to numb the pain
You don't have to take the blame
junkies. chimneys. parties.
not my fancy.
who's game to tk a plunge ?
its a clash of the titans.
its like askin the north & south poles to meet.
its like askin pammy to marry the pope.
its like ...
ahh u get my drift heh.
i miss my best friend.
as much as i hate to admit it.
i miss yer ramblinggg on n on n on n on =p
i miss yer acid tongue n endless suaning.
i miss yer complaints of hungerr.
yer whining.
yer bitching.
yer NEWS FLASH info :)
put in simple terms,
i miss yer presence.
altho u can be one HELLUVA pain in the ass,
its a pain i've gotten used to.
tho sometimes i swear i cld KILL YOU,
cant deny the fact tht i still love you fer who u are.
dammit this is so fuckin mushyyy.
hmmm new yrs resolutions ?
fuck em.
it'll be a neverending list of shit i'd nv get arnd to doing.
my biggest fear now till same time next yr ?
screwin up my "A"s.
my life basically revolves arnd my friends.
n now tht a large fraction of the pple i care abt r gonna vanish frm the college scene,
depression really is startg sink in.
vern : dont let the union btw the motherfuckincunt & unoewho get ya down. to hell wif em ! :)
char : u've become a really huge part of my life. i cant imagine sch wifout u next yr. it jez wont be worth attendg anymore. cant describe the sadness i feel.
thane : thanx fer everythg. cant begin to tell ya how much i appreciate it all.
xuez : keep to our promise ? heh :) a big thank you to ya too fer listeng.
CINDY : sorry i wuz late again today heh. pls dont tempt me to PLAY next yr ! ARGHS ! heh lil party elmo, always puttin a smile on my face.
dan : *ahem* i'm still waitg.
kris : i noe u prolly wont read this, but talkin to u jez now made me realise how much i'm gonna miss ya next yr. hope we really do keep in touch n tht wad u said jez now werent merely empty words ! heh cos i'm pretty sure i'll keep to my end of the promise :)
dammit i hate bein hm on nites like these.
makes me think too much n hence ramble uncontrollably.
[[ I'm looking past the shadows
Of my mind into the truth and
I'm trying to identify
The voices in my head
God, which one is you
Let me feel one more time
What it feels like to feel alive
And break these calluses off of me
One more time
'Cause I am hanging on every word you say
And even if you don't want to speak tonight
That's alright, alright with me
'Cause I want nothing more than to sit
Outside your door and listen to you breathing
Is where I want to be, yeah... ]]
-lifehouse : breathing.
hmmm i've said enough tonite.
so lemme leave ya'll wif this :
promises r like pie crusts. easily made, easily broken.
heh :)
*baby theres sumthg abt u tht i can hold on to, i'm gonna hold onto tht. ((five for fighting))
the masochist gnarled at 12/30/2003 01:28:00 AM
Friday, December 26, 2003
do u even noe wad love is ?
i think not.
the masochist gnarled at 12/26/2003 03:22:00 AM
the kaleidoscopic events of the past few weeks have rendered me somewhat catatonic.
bin gravitatg towards various pple, nevertheless havin a blast wif whoever i'm wif.
my greatest fear rite now is tht history shld repeat itself.
the past nv fails to return to haunt me like a lost spirit wif unfinished business.
fer a moment it felt like i wuz talkin to an old friend i hadnt heard frm in ages.
love actually.
:)
billy mack - fuckin hilarious !
xmas had gone as soon as it'd arrived.
time to start makin new yr resolutions tht u'd prolly ferget the very next day.
nasty hangovers. gettin covered in gunk. a stranger in yer bed perhaps ?
heh
all these wild turkey adventures r gonna come to a screechin halt.
no more lunacy fer us gd kids.
simple plan ------- when i'm wif u
the masochist gnarled at 12/26/2003 03:21:00 AM
Monday, December 22, 2003
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the masochist gnarled at 12/22/2003 10:12:00 PM
gracie the chopstick toothpick (but none the less, BEAUTIFUL -she forced me to write tht-) has revised her bloggie.
after a 1 yr hiatus, a la britney spears, she has returned to wow us.
g:mar ur making this sound like some cheesy advert. oh boy
m: why dun u go do it urself?
g: yea. true.
so yupp ppl. my blog is back! wit a vengence. diff add. so link me at www.benjaminkang.blogspot.com. can chuck the old one away if im previously linked to ya. im tryin my best to figure out how ta shut it down. yupp. so give ur support n check it out. no harm doing so. (damn it still sounds like an ad)
the masochist gnarled at 12/22/2003 07:19:00 PM
whirlwind romances.
pickpockets.
stripteases.
booze.
poker.
blackjack.
bisexuals.
incredible yet sorta tainted.
cautious due to past heartbreaks.
got a heavy load tht jez wont go away.
sweet.
cant stand lookin at u when yer tht wayy.
simply irresponsible.
a million apologies cldnt possibly make up fer nuthg.
frustrated over the amount of troubles i'm chained to.
do u even noe wad yer gettg yerself into ?
i dint think so.
amusing how pple whine tht u leave em out n dont keep in touch.
then when u finally do ask em out, on a platonic level,
they go n let their fluffy lil imaginations run wild.
cant keep myself from reminiscing bout the past.
all tht time spent doin whatever.
honestly, i dont noe wtf i'm doin.
squirmish.
boring.
varying frequencies.
nice.
need i say more ?
she says matter-of-factly tht it aint gonna work out.
i'm clueless as usual.
u noe how yer fat as hell, weighing more than 100kg, ugly as fuck.
n yer tryin ta lose weight desperately or weightwatchers is gonna screw u up real bad.
if u dont shrink or sumthg, u'll prolly jez die of a heart attack.
plus, u'll prolly stay some lonely single fuck all yer life, dying alone in a crumby apartment.
then u see swensens ice cream earthquake in front of u.
8 delicious flavours covered in toppings of all sorts.
wad do u do ?!
my pt is, its not easy resistg temptation.
esp sumthg so fuckin heavenly such as ice cream haha :)
shit happens.
mistakes only make u stronger.
i personally think u shldnt beat yerself up abt it.
sigh i dont even noe wad i'm talkin abt anymore.
*yer sweet jez like the sun
but wad happens when the sun doesnt stay ?
the nite reminds me when u went away (i dont care i dont care)
now my mind wuz pacing, heart is racing, contemplatg things tht i lack
even tho u left me by myself, do i want u back ?
-----the all american rejects - dont leave me
the masochist gnarled at 12/22/2003 02:05:00 AM
Thursday, December 18, 2003
lets talk a lil abt perth.
no wait ... lets not.
hmmms last nite wuz ... i dont noe man.
confusing, boring, exciting, satisfying, not up to expectations.
yeahhh talk abt contradiction.
poor ash mans.
strange is the way tht things r flowing rite now.
frankly, we dont need time fer this shit.
kinda contented in a laid-back, easygoing sorta way.
grace gil cindx char - hope u guys had a blast last nite :)
dammit cant believe i'm up at this ungodly hr while ya'll r still snoozin away.
urghs.
i think i'm fallin sick.
boohoo.
hmmm POSEUR.
damn lazy to say anythg.
basically cos, i cant say anythg here, unless i'm feeling suicidal.
n if i really NEED to let off steam, i gotta formulate my entries into lil riddles
so tht no one really noes wtf i'm talkin abt.
worse part is, they still noe wad i'm talkin abt.
either tht, or they read too much into it n start gettg funny ideas.
oh well, so much fer blogs.
time to start on my reply to a mega long email.
urgh.
i need a shrink.
the masochist gnarled at 12/18/2003 12:00:00 PM
Wednesday, December 17, 2003
Guess who's back, back again
Shady's back, tell a friend
Guess who's back, guess who's back,
guess who's back, guess who's back,
guess who's back, guess who's back,
guess who's back ...
the masochist gnarled at 12/17/2003 01:54:00 PM
Sunday, December 07, 2003
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the masochist gnarled at 12/07/2003 01:09:00 AM
Saturday, December 06, 2003
pretty girl is suffering while he confesses everything.
pretty soon she'll figure out: you can never get him out of your head.
it's the way that he makes you cry.
it's the way that he's in your mind.
it's the way that he makes you fall in love.
it's the way that he makes you feel.
it's the way that he kisses you.
it's the way that he makes you fall in love
sugarcult -------- pretty girl
the masochist gnarled at 12/06/2003 11:08:00 PM
heh :)
jez wad i needed before i leave :)
*false hopes ?
the masochist gnarled at 12/06/2003 09:49:00 PM
*dont claim tht i've MIA-ed when u'd much rather i keep my distance.
tiresome tiresome.
2 hrs of slp certainly aint enuff.
yeahhh n a big HAPPIE BIRTHDAY to Ben Kang :)
altho i noe he'll prolly nv read this.
oh wells, my pressie to u fer now is, ermmm grace ? heh
the so-called bbq wuznt quite wad it turned out to be.
singping's mom cooked up a storm.
think dere wuz enuff food to feed an entire army.
n like abt only 8 pple showed up hurhurs.
oh well, the food wuz fantastic :) definitely worth stuffin myself fer.
had pretty much fun playin tht NBA game thingy wif maddie 3/4 of the time.
as u can tell, i'm not very sociable so we holed up in SP's room while the rest mingled n pigged out.
dammit i think i'm hooked on it :) 'least i dont get trashed !
aight anyhows.
hmmm last nite wuz great yet awful.
wuz real glad tht vern went thru great pains to come wif us.
saby poo, vernie poo n i had loadsa fun tog :)
it wuz a much-anticipated nite.
in fact, i think it wuz even better than i'd hoped it wld be.
loadsa st nicks' peeps were everywhere tho.
we got into a lift n when we looked at the lift doors (which happen to be mirrors),
everyone in it realised tht the whole lift wuz filled wif st nicks' gurls.
heh kinda groovy in a wayy i guess.
3 generations holed up in one puny lift.
oh wells.
thank you, n you, n you, n you, n you, n the list goes on n on.
thank you saby fer lookin out fer me.
tho u did hand me to the care of complete strangers *ahem*,
heh but i appreciate u lookin out fer me n walkin me hm n shit like tht.
yer an angel to me :)
verniee poo whye'd u leave so early ?!
amazing how toilets can be such fateful places where u make new frens in the strangest of ways.
after all the gushing, retardedness, & recognition,
i'm jez glad i've found a friend in you.
tho its relatively awkward if u consider the external factors,
i still see it as more of a blessing than a curse.
it also serves as a "STOP" sign fer me, preventg me frm doin stuff i noe i'd regret in the future.
hmmm i wonder if pple r the same in real life as wad they appear to be on msn/thru email.
well i certainly hope yer as nice as u sound :)
abhor havin to be in the same vicinity, yet only the right kind can be found in tht area.
tough luck.
jez realised tht i'm morphing into someone belonging to tht category of pple tht i so often scorn at.
pple change, but i'd hoped tht it'd have been fer the better n not worse.
guess its nv too late to clean up one's act n make ammends.
disappointments one after another.
true friends r there fer u to confide in.
during the darkest hrs, confiding can become more of complaing.
thts jez how things tht come outta yer mouth sound like,
cos at tht pt in time, yer jez fuckin agitated n u wanna spill everythg the fastest way u can,
wifout having to care abt the unreasonable/bitchy way u sound.
well it seems theres not much left fer me to say.
except, i jez nv expected you to be so damn weak.
i nv seem to learn frm past mistakes.
sometimes i tend to give trust away as if it were a free gift.
gonna be flyin off ta perth in a day or so.
sunday morn's the flight, n i'm filled wif mixed emotions bout the entire thing.
of course i'm ecstatic tht 2 of my best buddies r gonna be joinin me n addin a lil pizazz to the trip,
but thinkin bout those i'm gonna be leavin behind kinda saddens me.
gosh, if i'm feelin this way, i wonder how grace feels.
guess it cant be compared.
still remem cryin my sockets out tht nite b4 leavin fer aus. fer 8 days. dint wanna be away frm you.
well now tht things r diff, a lil part of me still contains similar emotions.
of course now its bin widened to a larger circle which includes others as well.
i'm gonna miss vernie, jin, saby, vickiee, rongers, even cole.
i'm gonna miss cindx the elmo, char the shark, cherms the worm, fionasaurus, vic sex, n dan the hamster.
sighs.
i'm gonna miss max & rusty :(
i'm gonna miss emmerz, singping, vibrolushhh, chipmonk, maddie n zhi.
aight n the list goes on n on.
basically i'm jez gonna miss everyone.
heh at least it'll be bearable, i hope ?
hey if u guys want anythg, feel free to write a list of items u want me to lk out fer n purchase while i'm in perth yeah.
wads there to do in perth fer 8 friggin days besides shop ?!
hmmm wuz left rite smack in the midst of a pretty nasty/awkward situation yest.
felt guilty fer bein the cause of conflict, yet my conscience is clear tht i'm not to blame.
yes contradictive i noe.
whye's there always sumthg to hide btw us ?
the truth is so blindingly obvious, is it so hard to jez stop concealg it.
i'm disappointed, but perhaps thts my anger talkin.
i understand tht yer all tryin ta help n stuff, but i jez think its fuckin unfair sometimes.
trust me, its an awful feeling.
u think i cant handle the truth ? cos lying's not gonna do much to solve anythg.
have a lil faith in me aight, u think the decision u've made is gonna make things any better ?
u wanna salvage sumthg, or rather u dont wanna let stuff deteriorate, yet i think thts exactly wads goin on rite now.
ever thot maybe we'd all be betta off if everyone wuz a lil more open.
sheesh.
aights anyhows,
my feet are achin frm those killer 2.5inch heels.
went a lil crazy yest.
got a manicure fer the furst time in my life.
heh its no wonder i nv ever got one, i'm jez not the demure n dainty kinda gurl tht goes fer manicures.
within seconds, i ruined two of my nails n the manicurist had to repaint (she wuznt too happie bout it too)
heh n afta a long hard nite of partyin, they're all chipped n yucky lookin. hahas :)
oh then i actually got my hair curled. like temporarily.
char found it pretty amusing n cldnt stop playin wif it while cindy jez gave me tht stupid cheeky smile, like i'm some sorta idiot or bimbo or total retard. haha either way, it aint gd man.
heh yeahh, so tht wuz my one n only day of indulgence in these vain lil pursuits.
how icky. i'm makin myself nauseous :)
*so dear i love him
tht wif him,
all deaths i cld endure.
wifout him,
live no life.
_R&J
the masochist gnarled at 12/06/2003 01:12:00 AM
1. What is the time right now? 11.50pm
2. Name? Marissa
3. Preferred name? Mar/MarMar/Momo. Whatever my loved ones call me.
4. What are you wearing right now? sports bra n FBTs
5. Star sign? Aquarius
6. Where do you live? Hmmmms. Town ?
7. Gender? F
8. Single or taken? Single & Unavailable
9. Righty or lefty? Rightyyy
10. Hair color? Unevenly brown. Dye job gone catastrophic.
11. Eye color? Hazel brown
12. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? I have dogs. They're enough of a hassle.
13. Birthday? 17 Feb 1986
FOR GIRLS TO FILL OUT ON GUYS
1. Boxers or briefs? Hmmmm boxers
2. Long or short hair? Dependg on wad suits em better. But short wld be the prefered choice :)
3. Dark or blonde hair? Dark
4. Tall or short? At least a head taller than me.
5. Six pack? Wooohooooo :) Sexayeee.
6. Muscular arms? Hmmm defined but not beefy.
7. Good or bad guy? In between.
8. Hats or no hats? Nopers. Caps r okayy tho.
9. Ears pierced or not? Hmmm depends on whether it suits him.
10. Dimples? Are cute.
11. Study or cutie? Wad kinda questn is this man.
12. Dark or light eyes? Brownishhh.
13. Fat or thin? Toned.
14. Jewelry or none? Erms. Depends on wad kind.
15. Curly or straight hair? Whichever suits best. Straight wld be the prefered choice tho :)
16. Freckles or no freckles? Preferably none, but a lil bit can be kinda cute.
17. Indoor or outdoor? OUtdoor !
18. Shy or outgoing? Hmmm in between.
FOR GUYS TO FILL OUT ON GIRLS (teehee i'll fill it up anyways)
1. Regular underwear or G? G !!!!!!!
2. Painted nails or not? Depends on her style.
3. Bra or sports bra? Either one's equally sexy.
4. Cute n mysterious or wild n sexy? Wild & sexy.
5. Dressy or casual? Casual.
6. Dark or blonde hair? Light Brown.
7. Long or short hair? Whichever suits her better (I'd prefer long tho heh)
8. Dark or light eyes? Light Brown.
9. Long or short nails? Erms ? Not too long & not too short.
10. Hat or no hat? NoNOno. Unless she lks goddamn gorgeous in it :)
11. Good or bad girl? In between.
12. Fat or thin? Slim/Lean & toned.
13. Hair up or down? Whichever the situation calls fer.
14. Jewelry on or none? Some.
15. Short or tall? 1.63m n below :)
16. Curly or straight hair? Whichever suits her.
17. Pants or dress? Dress !
18. Tan or fair? Tanned.
19. Freckles or none? Jez a lil wld be cute.
20. Indoor or outdoor? Outdoor !
21. Shy or outgoing? Shy :)
EVERYONE
1. Would you date someone just for his/her
looks? NOPE.
2. Chocolate or white milk? Both. Heh.
3. Mud or jelly? Erms Mud.
4. Skiing or boarding? Boarding !
5. Summer or winter? Summerish.
6. Cake or pie? OOoOo so hard to choose. Hmmm both ? Heh okayy okayy. PIE ! -drools-
7. Silver or gold? White gold.
8. Sunset or sunrise? Sunset.
9. Have you ever fractured/broken/sprained a
bone? Hell yeahhh.
10. What's your favorite color? Yellow & Black. Jez like a buzzy bee :)
11. Do you hate anyone? How abt more of immensely dislike. No space in my heart fer hatred.
12. What do you dream about? Hmmmm. Totally WEIRD stuff. Stuff thts usually the complete opposite of wad happens afterwards in reality. Oh n i dream a lot bout being haunted by ghosts. Spooky eh ?
13. Do you have a HUGE crush on someone right now? NOPE.
14. Who's the loudest friend ? Sab/Vern. Tk yer pick :)
15. Who's the quietest friend? Jin my tofu princess. But dont get me wrong man, shes not all tht quiet after all.
16. Who do you tell your dreams to? Pple who care to listen.
17. What shampoo and conditioner do you use? Hmmm some pink coloured St Ives shampoo, n Loreal/Herbal Essence conditioner.
18. How many TVs in your house? 4
19. Who's the last person you called? My momsie.
20. Where do you want to get married? In hawaii by the beach.
21. Favorite number? 17
22. Favorite boy’s names? Jordan, Ash, Evan, Flynn.
23. Favorite girl’s names? Isabelle, Portia, Beverly, Jordan
24. Have you ever gone skinny dipping? Hell yeahhh.
25. Have you been in love? Yeahhhh :)
the masochist gnarled at 12/06/2003 12:16:00 AM
Thursday, December 04, 2003
endless nite of travellg.
zouk wuz burstg wif prommerz so we scuttled to china black.
upon havin made us wait so long due to some black out,
cover charge (fer guys) wuz waved n everyone got in wifout a single ID check.
hurhurs.
chipmonk, u guys shldve waited a while more !
well sorry i made ya'll waste on cab fares n stuff, hope ya'll had fun at zouk :)
aights anyhows, the crowd at china black wuz *SNORES*
plenty of free drinks n shit, but the podium dancers were ... *ahem*
decided to leave early wif eunice n head hm, conserve energy fer tonite. hahas
*thanx vibrolushhhh fer the help wif the ID.
okayy so basically, the event of the nite wuz jez sittg on some comfy black couch at marina mandarin
wif yunx, candice, cindx n thane - waitg fer the prommerz to flood outta the ballroom.
loadsa really gorgeous dolled-up j2s n smart-lookin dudes.
got ta get a peek of fionasaurus in classic black as well (heh she wuz jez doin duty).
oh yeahh, the most babelicious, laura i think ? the furst one to flee frm the prom.
whoaaaa *wolf whistles* glad i wuz dere to catch tht sight.
hmmm oh wells.
the entire thing jez let loose my imagination.
kept thinkin bout how our grad wld be like next yr.
heh wads CINDY ELMO gonna wear ?! hurhurs.
ive got a couple of ideas in mind alreadie -beams-
had trouble slpg again last nite.
had a nice long chat wif my chickiee banana :)
tis bin a long time since we've had tht.
we've concluded tht bein single is the ultimate way to go.
jez lk at all the r'ship probs tht're swirling arnd us, sorta gives us an indirect migraine.
lil snippets of info revealed ta me sorta brought a smile upon my face.
but hmmm, the bottomline is, neutrality has its advantages.
oh well, we'll see :)
managed to accumulate quite a crowd to head down tonite.
plus, our usual post-bash slumberrrrr partyyy.
pretty excited since its bin 2 wks since i've actually enjoyed a gd nite of clubbg.
zouk last sat wuz a HUGE let down. WASTE MY MONEY ! -growl-
cindx u lil elmo.
thanx a lot fer informing me bout tht lil slimefest tht almost happened.
DEAR GOD.
i'm thankful u came to yer senses in the nick of time !
heh had a pretty gd laff upon hearg bout it :)
theres this dumb piece of shit i noe whos tryin ta hit on 3 gurls at once (or perhaps more ?),
all three bein gd frens.
talk abt GREED.
aight, this doesnt usually bother me.
but if tht slimeball hurts you, i swear i'll rip his throat out.
heh no more Mr. Sexy Voice -gag-
sometimes, 3 simple words seem to be the only answer to every questn posed.
either cos its the best way to evade stuff.
or cos its nuthg but the truth.
but i noe fer sure it wldnt haf worked out either way.
Nirvana ft. Hole ----- Cocaine Girl
the masochist gnarled at 12/04/2003 11:53:00 AM
Wednesday, December 03, 2003
You'll Fall in Love With A Libra!
You value a drama free relationship, one which a natural pleaser Libra can provide.
Your Libra wants nothing more than to be in love with you - and make you happy.
While indecisive Libra may take a while to fall for you, once he / she does ... it's forever.
To catch a Libra, simply be over the top romantic.
Flowers, chocolates, wine, and bubble baths will give your Libra the luxury he / she craves.
And you'll get pampered back in time.
Libra may seem a bit cold and unresponsive at first.
After a while Libra's become less and less guarded...
And in the end, the most playful lover you'll ever know!
What Sign Should Your Lover Be?
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the masochist gnarled at 12/03/2003 01:32:00 PM
Tuesday, December 02, 2003
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the masochist gnarled at 12/02/2003 02:55:00 AM
a long drawn-out discussion over matters of urgency.
a fiesty tirade.
a sombre reply.
yep tht pretty much sums up the events of the last 20mins
involving 3 diff pple.
some party's goin on at china black tonite.
kinda glad i aint dere, but then again,
if i were, wld any of this shit had happened ?
who noes.
the trust i've gained seems to haf slipped outta my hands sooner than expected.
n the best part is, it wuz a completely innocent affair.
fuckin lunatic.
horrendous how pple can be so oblivious of the severity of their actions before its too late
n the irrepairable damage is done.
i'm beginng to see the darker side of the colourful picture u've painted fer me.
*whye does it always rain on me.
to think i wuz safely in a world of my own, where nuthg involves me.
unfortunately, due to ties n responsibilities as a fren,
i'm somehow linked to every goddamn thing tht seems to haf fucked up recently.
life sure as hell aint lookin too peachy.
cant believe tht i actually let myself fester upon such wishes.
even when i'm in a friggin movie, shit still penetrates my mind n distracts me frm concentratg on the plot.
things happen by default n sometimes, u jez cant quite make head nor tail of the whole thing.
its disappointg n saddeng when i see pple tk things fer granted.
even i've bin a culprit of tht.
bin tryin ta think of ways to help her see wad shes doin but some pple jez dont seem to learn.
oh well, perhaps shes learnt sumthg frm all the shit thts happened in the past.
but shes takin things to an extreme tht really doesnt ease the situation.
instead, it only makes things worse.
*note to self : no one's perfect. esp not you.
some pple r SO lucky, but they fail to see tht,
n hence they dont treasure wad they haf till its wayy too late.
i wish i were as lucky.
heard a story today tht turned my insides to mush.
so fuckin nauseating yet every word keeps replayin in my mind like a broken record.
wannabe. poseur.
-shudders-
thts wotcha turning into.
i'm speechless.
wad a dilemma. i'm stuck in a rut.
whye do i rush hm on days when i shld be out partyin.
whye the fuck do i keep turng on my comp.
whye am i constantly online.
whye do i persistently check my mail tho i noe theres none to check.
whye m i hooked onto tht fuckin network.
disaster has struck n i'm sinkin on this cruise to nowhere.
thursday thursday thursday :)
i'm goin even if no one's goin.
all this time i've bin the way i am.
then this comes along n i think to myself, damnnn, i'm willing to change.
but then again, i noe zilch bout anythg n its jez pure insanity takin over me.
cant wait cant wait.
cant wait to laugh my head off.
-anticipates-
one down. one million to go.
at least i got one thing off my chest.
the masochist gnarled at 12/02/2003 02:16:00 AM
Monday, December 01, 2003
Your Passion is Purple!
You're passionate - but more people view you as funky.
You're more about sampling the different flavors of passion...
Not that you don't mind getting swept off your feet.
It's just you need a little someone new every once and a while.
What Color Is Your Passion?
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the masochist gnarled at 12/01/2003 03:05:00 AM
You are a Romantic Date
Your dating philosophy?
"Date to fall in love"
You prefer your dates to lead you down a romantic path
If there's no soulmate connection, you're just wasting your time
Guys to look for:
Guys serious about love, who say they're ready for marriage
Search for guys looking to "settle down" or "meet my match"
Because if a guy's just playing the field, he won't give yout the romance you crave
What Kind of Date Are You?
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the masochist gnarled at 12/01/2003 02:57:00 AM
You Are Retro Sexy!
You have a classic sex appeal that passes the test of time.
You're feminine, subtle with your seductions, and perfectly tuned into men.
A woman with your attention to detail is rare find and a true prize.
You're an incredible catch for any guy, especially rich older ones.
What Kind of Sexy Are *You*?
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the masochist gnarled at 12/01/2003 02:52:00 AM
>discover your inner candy heart @ quiz me
the masochist gnarled at 12/01/2003 02:46:00 AM
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the masochist gnarled at 12/01/2003 02:43:00 AM